Vibes

There was a theme and set of topics set for this month that had to be scrapped,

so this post will touch on some other stuff to keep the monthly train going - and hopefully let off some real steam on the outside.

Got back into reading for the habit more than the learning. I try to do it first thing everyday while it’s still dark. It sets such a good tone for the day.The tone doesn’t last long, but it’s a break. So many things just suck, but the culture says no complaining - good/thankful vibes only.

It’s said to keep your personal shit to yourself, but this past year has shown me how silence allows for serious/important stuff to go unchecked. There are lot of things I know I can’t speak on due to my circumstance (and trying to keep my head down), but I often worry about the stories/things I’m attached to without my knowledge or consent. Actively avoiding some situations and staying quiet probably has more disadvantages than advantages – an advantage being able to avoid making an emotional spectacle online for laughs. There’s a lot else going on to then have to worry about image at this stage in my life, so I happily take the advice to stay in my own lane. I tapped out of the game of contrived conflict for attention a while ago.

Almost lost this monitor (yesterday, hence I’m posting this now rather than on Monday - cos who knows…) after a weird shady look into my room followed by a strange visit, a jimmied window and everything fallen over. I understand I’m part of a bigger joke, but I have my limits at being a toy while also trying to sort my shit out.

It takes a long time for masks to fall off (if ever), and many of those who try to pull them off fall long before then.

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All that said, it feels good to be making some kind of progress in most areas. It’s just taking time.

Next month I’m hoping to complete my first data exploration for to the blogfolio. Started with R Studio. Nothing special, but it’s good practice and some of it is live already. Been dedicating an hour-or-so everyday to work on it and spending the rest working to finish the bigger urgent project. I honestly think Blender is cursed sometimes with some of the weird things that happen.